masks

who [or what] actually caused the changes in us?

is it the greediness, that is always calling out for attention.

or the cowardness, that is always trying to gain comfortness from others.

perhaps is the emptiness, that its always crying out for company.

i dont know. i see those around me and i feel doubtfulness in them. everyone is fake by nature, but to what degree.

its a torture to see people trying to cover the broken side of them with so much masks. i'm no longer in a purity space where we were all so free and joyful.

i'm getting tired of judging who is true, and who isnt. but one thing for sure, we all arent.

i'm no longer thinking about spending any attention on friends, i just wanna rest in my home and wait for ed to be home.

this circle of masks is fucking irritating.

"ignornace is bliss", i shall live with it.

and if u think that u've won by getting al the friends, think again. u're wearing what they are wearing too.

{ 27 November 2006{18:12}