directions

they always say that the foundation of a relationship is communication, and that is what ed and i left behind as we move forward with our life. the only problem we had was never able to seat down and talk. as everything piles up, the end came.

it is not as easy as i thought it was showing. yet, i couldnt withstand that fact that saying "sorry" was always my chore, and giving in was always part of my responsibilities. it was tough understanding why hanging up on someone u love seems so easy. that was our final straw.

being pushed around never felt this bad, yet putting my pride down was even tougher.

we began having a dream of our own, without bringing any of us together. i was busy with my attachment, him busy juggling both studies and work. i never requested him to fully understand that tireness and sourness i have at work, yet there were times, it drained me more.

the days where i started to bury too much, that it all made me sick. we no longer communicate. the life we had eventually dissolved with the vapours.

perhaps the life we are having now does not permits us to have other committments, no one will ever understand. it all seems easy to overcome; the truth is, it was never.

neither one of us are at fault, we're just amatures in life; and a long lesson of life awaits us.

it bears so much hurt to just think back of what came out of his mouth, and the scars seems impossible of us to move on.

I gotta let my spirit be free to
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry bout everything I done
live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once
Needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo I'll always have you
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do

{ 16 February 2008{12:50}